i remember very keenly what P said to me when i met him one morning in the bus on the way to work:

so. seeing as you do your work very well, if you did stay on you would definitely be a great lawyer. you previously said that you wanted to work full-time, would you still find working as a lawyer something that draws you very much?

no.

why?

because the things that i love, i love much more than these.

it did not require a response from me. i remember the height depth wonder and tenderness as in a dream. it is part of what my early post on the colour-spreading world was all about.