i dont quite understand how it is that however long ive been away when i end up back among my family everything seems to fall together like a puzzel its as if it ought to be this way all the time and it doesnt seem like a visit nor a holiday but just the way it is it is most strange though missing two people to the equation and i can just be a certain kind of me that i dont get to be anywhere else carefree naggy happy with not too many words and marveling too lots when my little brother comes out with queer answers to his math and my sister plays the piano quite brilliantly in a way her appearance doesnt belie and mum is mum and i get my homecooked veggies :)

i marvel too at how God takes care of His own

(oh, and sorry R for me being so utterly irresponsible

i was getting immensely tired not coping very well and missing things left right and center

but theres no excuse to such things)